When your depression has you so low, and you basically hate yourself. Everything makes you cry. Or super defensive.

I need a job – badly. (Lost my job end of November and I’m the money maker). So I found a job, not in my career, about half the pay we need, but it’s a job, someone that’ll hire me, and for the last 3 months, I’ve just had phone interview after phone interview.

I will like this job, it’ll make me happy – and that’s important to me. ADHD and all that – if I’m not happy and challenged, I can’t stick with it.

But it isn’t good enough for husband. Nothing is good enough for him. Any pay is better than $0. But he’s never happy.

And so. I’m crying again. Failure. Loser. Worthless. When will I actually grow up?